There comes a time in life when your nightstand stops being a simple piece of furniture and becomes a small, humming ecosystem.
Mine now glows at night like a modest airport — blue lights, green lights, amber lights — each one blinking its own Morse code message: You’re still here, old boy. Keep going.
The newest addition is a pair of hearing aids, the discreet kind that hide in your ears with tiny antennas sticking out like you’re quietly monitoring Russian radio transmissions.
They’re so small and clever that I half expect them to whisper stock tips or baseball scores directly into my brain.
They come with all the modern wizardry: frequency learning, background noise suppression, auto volume control, and a WiFi interface that lets me “equalize” my ears from my phone.
My ears now have settings.
I resisted them, of course. I’ve spent years trying to keep technology at arm’s length. But technology, like aging, has a way of creeping in politely and then never leaving.
First came the CPAP machine, humming like a friendly tractor. Then the iPhone charger, glowing like a lighthouse.
And now the hearing aid docking station, which looks suspiciously like it could launch a drone.
My nightstand is no longer a nightstand. It’s a small civic district. A neighborhood of helpful machines. A bionic cul de sac.
There’s something oddly poetic about it all — the soft LEDs, the quiet hums, the gentle whirring.
It’s like sleeping beside a tiny orchestra of benevolent robots. They don’t judge. They don’t complain. They simply stand guard through the night, keeping breath flowing, batteries charged and hearing restored.
It’s not a surrender. It’s a collaboration.
And it began long before the hearing aids — back when I was diagnosed with prostate cancer 10 years ago. Radiation treatment, recovery, the slow rebuilding of a life.
Then COVID-19, twice, each round a reminder that the body is both fragile and astonishingly stubborn.
I’ve become, over time, a man who has been rebuilt more than once. A man with replacement parts. A man who has learned to bend without breaking.
Let’s be honest: aging can be funny.
My hearing aids talk to my phone. My phone talks to my watch. My watch talks to my CPAP.
At this point, I’m pretty sure my appliances are forming a book club without me. If they start leaving minutes from their meetings on my pillow, I’ll know for sure.
But humor is part of the grace of aging. It’s the cosmic wink that says: You’re still in the game. You’re still learning. You’re still adapting. You’re not done yet.
Not being done relates to mattering — how it changes as we age.
When you’re young, mattering is loud. You matter because you’re busy, visible, ambitious.
Later in life, mattering becomes quieter, more deliberate. You matter because you show up. You matter because you listen.
You matter because you keep choosing hope even when the body requires a little technological encouragement.
Mattering is not a feeling. It’s a practice.
It’s the practice of putting on hearing aids so you can hear your grandchildren. It’s the practice of wearing a CPAP so you can wake up tomorrow.
It’s the practice of letting your nightstand glow like a small airport because you’re still traveling — just not as fast as you used to.
So, yes, my nightstand glows. Yes, my ears now have antennas. Yes, I’m becoming a little bionic.
But here’s the punchline: every one of these blinking, humming, whirring gadgets is a vote for tomorrow. They’re not reminders of decline — they’re declarations of intent.
They say I’m still in the conversation. I’m still listening. I’m still breathing. I’m still showing up for the people I love and the community I care about.
And if mattering in one’s later years requires a CPAP, a charger and a pair of WiFienabled ears, then I say plug me in and turn me loose.
Because the truth is, I don’t feel diminished. I feel upgraded.
Not younger — just more determined.
Not sleeker — just more tuned in.
Not perfect — just perfectly willing to keep going.
So on this personal birthday season, with my nightstand lit up like a small municipal airport, I’m choosing to see all this technology not as a sign of aging, but as a sign of participation.
A sign that I’m still involved with life. A sign that I still matter — and intend to keep mattering.
And if the universe wants to give me a few LEDs to light the way, well … I’ll take the runway every time.

